This is one of those impossible posts to write, so it'll be short and probably leave everyone in confusion. Brian is leaving for California in the morning to live with his dad. We are not divorced right now (I know that's what you're wondering). He is struggling with a lot of things and could not make it here on his own anymore. He said goodbye to the girls this afternoon. They seemed to take it pretty well--we only told them a few sentences of bare minimum information. Then I took them with me to get my eyebrows waxed. Also, I've been up since 3:30 am with Hannah, who cried for almost 3 hours straight. Little devil. After they went to bed, I helped Brian move a couple things. I'm completely wasted and have a pile of Spanish homework to do for Friday, so goodnight. I've got nothing left in me right now.

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Unknown said…
You are good to help him move. Cuidate. If you need homework help llamame.
July 1, 2010 at 7:12 AM
Jennifer Walker said…
knew I felt prompted to put your name on the prayer roll for a reason. I love you, sis
July 1, 2010 at 4:07 PM
Andrew Walker said…
Carrie, you are the business.
July 2, 2010 at 7:57 AM
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