I feel like I should post something because I really need that awful picture of me in the hospital off the front of this blog, but it's been a very rough few days and I just don't have it in me to do much right now except lay in bed. School is draining me more than I thought it could and Brian is sick for the third time in two weeks. I am not enough butter spread over too much bread. Sorry for the downer. Oh, wait-I did get my eyebrows waxed, so there's something good. I'm sure this will be a better week....

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Larri-Lea said…
turleystThis will be a good week - temple open house, coming to see Grandma and Grandpa, shopping at Build-a-Bear ann Williams & Sonoma - what more could you ask for? It'll be better, and I do hope Brian gets well. This goofy virus that's going around is a kicker this year. susnhine does wonders, too. Can't wait for that one.
February 18, 2009 at 7:49 AM
Mari said…
I know you have a fun weekend planned. You will make it through the week and enjoy the fun. I totally need my eyebrows waxed. Plus who wouldn't want to be going to the temple and shopping. I probably won't. I may even get to spend my bday in the hospital. Oh well, this too shall pass. P.S. Hope they find out what Brian has for yours and his sanity.
February 18, 2009 at 10:34 AM
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